Suzanne's challenge #21

When in your life have you been most afraid? Write about how it made you feel and how your fear was resolved.

There are actually two that I can think of but probably the one that made me the most afraid was when Todd was a baby and got spinal meningitis. We had to put him in the hosptial and they didn't know what was wrong with him at first and had to do tests. I tried watching while they tried and tried to get an IV started. After several attempts on his little arms (he was only 10 months old) they ended up cutting into his ankle and putting an IV in there. His foot looked like it was in a cast. I could hear him screaming and I was just crying and crying. The Dr. called at 11:00 that night and when I heard the Dr.'s voice that late at night, I thought my baby had died. My legs were so whobbly that I had to sit down, I swear my heart stopped. The Dr. just called to say there had been no change and he was still holding his own.

The Dr. called the next morning to ask permission to perform a spinal tap as they suspected he had spinal meningitis. Since I didn't really know what that was, I wasn't as afraid as I should have been. I went to the hospital and that is what he ended up having. The Dr. told me that they have saved children who had this before, and I swear, I almost fainted thinking that I could lose my little baby.

Todd ended up getting well very quickly and being very spoiled by all of the nurses at the hospital. All of us, even his sister, who was afraid she was going to lose her little brother was happy when he came home.